Roading
Hall Thorpe: Home (c. 1919)
"Life continues even when the protagonists are off Roading."
Traveling demands a different governing ethic than home ever does. At home, a certain level of control seems possible that traveling renders unlikely. Different comforts satisfy there, too, with novelty and unfamiliarity replacing comforting routine and predictability. For sure, I find traveling enticing, so much so that I have grown to avoid its seduction, insisting that I have pressing business keeping me in my place at home. I contend that I've found my center, and leaving throws me off that balance. I even feign pressing business that might otherwise remain easily deferrable, attempting to deflect the old seduction Roading resurrects. I was once what might have passed as a road warrior, so familiar with airplane schedules that I never had to look them up, gone more than I ever came back.
As with most seductions, I eventually awakened from that dream, however enticing it continued to seem.
HistoryLesson
Arthur Rothstein: Street in Butte, Montana (1939)
Farm Security Administration Photographs
The Miriam and Ira D. Wallach Division of Art, Prints and Photographs: Photography Collection, The New York Public Library. "Street in Butte, Montana" The New York Public Library Digital Collections. https://digitalcollections.nypl.org/items/32c50bd0-059b-0138-0ab0-4f25bfb71a96
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"…he very best portrait of our American Dream, and one hell of a HistoryLesson."
The history of the American West comes deeply steeped in myth, though even deeper truths become apparent with any visit. This remains a rough and relatively wild place, with poverty its most obvious characteristic. Small towns tend toward something other than the idyllic. The few cities seem displaced and still largely experimental. The highways connecting places seem mostly empty and in need of considerable repair. The scenery remains breath-taking, even daunting. Those who live there still struggle to survive, let alone thrive, for the economy remains securely stuck in some prior century the inhabitants seem quick to defend. HistoryLessons seem perhaps more apparent to visitors than to residents, who have been the serial victims of many previous attempts to prosper.
Relatively desperate people settled the American West, people fleeing almost certain ruin on the prospect that they might get lucky, or luckier than their birthright alone proved.
DerelictBarns
Claes Jansz Visscher: A Barn, from Landscapes
[Verscheyden aerdige Lanthuysen…] (1620)
"…as our history continues disappearing around us."
I worry some about what will become of the DerelictBarns I have known through my life, for I have grown to rely upon them, and I fear my grandchildren and great-grandchildren might never know they existed. Nobody seems to be building new cathedrals to their critters and hay. Most farmers opt for aluminum pole buildings these days. Back in the day, by which I refer to times long before mine, self-respecting farmers might erect a barn intended to weather the ages, massive edifices with stone foundations and fluted roofs. These proclaimed a deep faith in the future and self-esteem the likes of which seem ever rarer these days.
For me, a townie, DerelictBarns held history that utterly fascinated me.
On_Liberty
Irving S. Underhill (possibly): Statue of Liberty, New York (c. 1928)
"…to never be the same again. Period."
I woke this morning to find myself temporarily off my usual duty. In Navy parlance, this state renders me On_Liberty. I haven't mustered out, and I still retain my responsibilities, though they have been suspended for a limited time so that I might pursue other interests. Somebody else fed my cats last night, a daily responsibility I take most seriously, and they also fed my pond fish. The Muse rigged up water timers and sprinklers to accomplish what I would usually take full responsibility for fulfilling. I left Kurt, our painter, in charge of the never-ending porch refurbishment, and Linda Sue, our longtime friend and house cleaner, in charge of the house. I did not begin yesterday evening crouching around picking up over-ripe apricots I couldn't reach when harvesting that had finally given up and smashed themselves on the driveway. I didn't even cook my own supper, for I was On_Liberty.
My nephew, who served a stint in the Navy, though I didn't, explained to me that most seamen waste what little liberty they get.
Unaiming
Hans Thoma: The Wanderer [Der Wanderer] (1903)
"I will not have heard the news because I wouldn't have been listening for it."
I had become too focused, too purposeful, and so had The Muse, whose role as Port Commissioner often seemed all-consuming. We'd start our days by syncing schedules and end them with a late supper. I would rise ever earlier, and she'd come to bed seemingly ever-later, sometimes not quite asleep yet when my alarm was going off. Life can become all-consuming, more obligatory and predatory than freeing and renewing; hamster wheels with vaunted purposes; debts incurred solely to achieve leverage.
We went around and around to reach an agreement on the terms of our disengagement, for engagement had become addictive, enlarging responsibilities into imperatives.
Weekly Writing Summary For The Week Ending 08/07/2025
George Inness: Summer in the Catskills (1867)
Aching To Feel Aimless Again
Each day seems to bring another insult, a fresh example of waste, fraud, and/or abuse. Our incumbent has amply proven himself to be a first-class nincompoop who cannot seem to act according to his own oath of office. He possesses no honor, class, or intelligence. He seems to believe he's above accountability. I keep adding fresh items to his eventual Bill of Particulars, the list of grievous offenses he will one day be charged with when he's finally impeached. He's such a delicate damned flower, unable to handle the truth about anything. He and his minions have created a fictional administration Hell-bent on undermining civilization in favor of a Confederacy of absolute dunces. I bring up all these obvious points that don't really need recounting to admit that I'm weary of it. It doesn't seem like drama. I cannot seem to suspend my gape-mouthed disbelief when each previously unimaginable insult to my morals and my intelligence appears on another front page. I'm suffering from some degree of depression, if only because these days seem so doggone depressive. My optimism often calls in sick. My usual enthusiasm wants a nap. My digestive system barks at me about whatever I consume. I need a change of venue. I've been daydreaming of visiting France and Italy, where sunny days nudged us to ramble aimlessly and fruitfully. I ache to feel aimless again. Over the next two weeks, the Muse and I will be toodling. I will be checking in from presently unknowable locations.
PreppingForEternity
Charles François Daubigny: The Boat Studio, from The Boat Trip (1861)
ABOUT THIS ARTWORK
In order to paint the river landscape scenes that accorded so well with his temperament and taste, Daubigny decided to build a floating studio that could be positioned to afford the best points of view and to capture the varied effects of natural light. The etchings that resulted in the series “The Boat Trip” are an early example of the plein-air aesthetic, a practice of working outdoors that the Impressionists would wholeheartedly embrace.
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"I'll just witness the final installation."
Even the idea of being away from The Villa for more than a week unsettles me. The Muse wisely suggests we refer to it as a road trip rather than as a vacation, and to the extent that such a second-order reframing soothes me, this works! I will not undertake this excursion as if it were a reward for diligently working, but as a much more pedestrian toodle a little further afield than usual. To maintain this illusion, we plan to avoid driving on freeways. The Muse was raised just south of US Highway 12 in NE South Dakota. I was raised just south of the same highway in SE Washington State. Between these two locations lies what now amounts to an ancient route across Montana and South Dakota, one trucks abandoned in favor of the Interstates. Twelve hundred and fifty miles of two-lane blacktop: small towns, scenery, and, with luck, some sanity.
Preparing to leave remains a challenge.
UnderGawd
Unknown Indonesian artist from Central Java:
God Ganesha, Remover of Obstacles (9th/10th century)
"…no enforcement mechanism other than the usual tacit coercion has yet been codified into statute. Yet."
Perhaps the definitive element of American citizenship lies in its relationship to God. (I've thoughtfully included a picture of a prominent god above, the Hindu god Ganesha, Remover of Obstacles so that we can share a visual example of a prominent god.) "Real" Americans believe themselves to operate "Under God," as stated in the amended Pledge of Allegiance to our flag. The author of the pledge originally proposed it as an antidote to the influence of immigration from Southern Europe, which was popularly believed to be threatening to dilute genuine American values. He intended schoolchildren to recite it, and it contained no mention of God.
The Federal Government standardized the pledge during WWII, but it still held no reference to God.
MsCommunication
Corita Kent (Sister Mary Corita): yellow submarine (1967)
Inscriptions and Marks
Signed: l.c. in black ink (ball point): Corita
inscription: Printed quote reads: MAKE LOVE NOT WAR / VIETNAM / What has it done to the home of the brave? AND OUR FRIENDS ARE ALL ABOARD MANY MORE THAN LIVE NEXT DOOR Lennon McCartney
-Harvard Art Museums/Fogg Museum, Margaret Fisher Fund
-© Courtesy of the Corita Art Center, Immaculate Heart Community, Los Angeles / Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York
"Vacation is the final stage of denial."
Anyone who has attempted to commit a long-term relationship can attest to an occasional communication problem made more difficult by the anesthesia relationships induce. After a decade or two, even the more self-aware seem likely to persuade themselves that they understand what they could never understand. Long proximity bestows no immunity against misunderstanding. It might even render those infrequent occurrences just that much more insidious. The watchman dozes. One might even convince oneself that one can disclose anything without fear of offending, that one's partner represents a bottomless well of understanding. This could never have been the case, though, for regardless of the length or depth of a relationship, the partners remain different people and prone to the occasional bout of serious MsCommunication.
I was never one to subscribe to the notion that women are from Venus and men hail from Mars, though I suspect that gender might engender different perspectives.
DisappointingMyself
Caesar Boëtius van Everdingen: Pan and Syrinx (c. 1644 - c. 1652)
Gallewry Notes:
The nymph Syrinx is on the run, with the forest god Pan, hidden among the dense vegetation, in hot pursuit. Van Everdingen captures the dramatic moment of the metamorphosis as Syrinx implores the river nymphs for help. They transform her into water reeds. Her right foot is already turning green. Disappointed, Pan listens to the wind playing through the tall reeds and subsequently cuts his flute from them.
"…knowing for sure only that I was DissapointingMyself again."
I am perhaps most skilled at DisappointingMyself. Oh, believe me, I remain fully capable of disappointing everyone else, but without intending to disclose even the tiniest bit of personal narcissism, I seem to be most skilled at DisappointingMyself. When I disappoint others, I first DissapointMyself. I hold myself to unrealistic standards, refusing to adjust my metrics to emerging conditions. I hold ideals more than I ever hold ideas. I frequently fail to uphold those ideals in practice. I can't seem to visualize modest ideals. What might they entail? How might I wean myself of my loftier aspirations? On my better days, I seem capable of accepting that I'm only human; on some days, barely so. Even when I set what seem like reasonable goals, I fail to achieve them.
As with any experience, coping's the essence.
Dedicated
Will Hicock Low: Dedication [for Lamia] (1885)
"It's unlikely to kill me now, either."
Much of the work you and I engage in fails to feel all that engaging. Much of it seems mind-numbing if not necessarily self-destructive. I realize, now that realizing no longer matters, what my father was doing when he insisted I mow more lawn than any eight-year-old should ever mow or rake more leaves than I ever believed I could. He was teaching me how to become Dedicated to some outcome. He'd come up the hard way, in a broken home during the Great Depression, and he had learned from a stern grandfather and a nurturing mother, as well as from a ne'er-do-well counterexample of a dad, how to set aside his feelings to accomplish something or not. He told many tales of working in harvest: how hop vines raised welts on his forearms, how green beans fill up a sack too slowly, how he'd shown up early in the morning and worked through midday. These were object lessons intended to inform me about how this world works.
He was an inspiration.
Jaded
Dorothy Dehner: Landscape for Cynics (1945)
Harvard Art Museums/Fogg Museum,
Gift of the Dorothy Dehner Foundation for the Visual Arts
© Dorothy Dehner Foundation for the Visual Arts
"…why they're so confidently leading us into Hell."
We inhabit a time seemingly tailor-made for cynics. The individuals who comprise our administration, who never intended to administer anything, lead the way by steadfastly failing to fulfill the obligations they agreed to when taking their oaths of office. They tend to do the opposite of whatever they promise. The incumbent confuses confabulation with communication. His supporters insist that we should take him seriously, but never literally, whatever that's supposed to mean. The party that long advertised themselves as The Party of Lincoln, family values, and economic conservatism behaves like confederates, pedophiles, and economic ignoramuses in practice. My congressional representative makes no bones about who he believes he's representing, and it's not his constituents, whose interests he's betrayed at every opportunity.
I was no innocent.
Weekly Writing Summary For The Week Ending 07/31/2025
Johannes Tavenraat: Twee vrouwen en een persoon met capuchon
[Two women and a person with a hood] (1840 - 1880)
So It Seems To Go
When my father was in his mid-fifties, he took early retirement from the Post Office because he could afford to. He retired not to a life of leisure but one featuring different kinds of work, for he had always been a working man and would get uncomfortable if he had too much time on his hands. He reserved time to watch his beloved Mariners, Yankees, and Dodgers, and to read his books, but he also had a large yard to care for, as well as a few rentals that always seemed to require his attention. Preparing to be out of town, he pushed himself even harder than usual so that when he showed up at my home in Portland, he was experiencing shooting pains down one arm and extreme tiredness. I ferried him over to Providence, where they decided to admit him. He was in the ICU for the following week and in that hospital for the next ten days. He was released to recover from his heart attack, not at home, but at my place, where he and my mom were welcome for as long as his recovery took. He was exceedingly weak, unable to even sit up for more than a few minutes at first. It was humbling to see this man, who had always been so physically commanding, so disabled. He never even thought of smoking another cigarette again, and claimed to have never missed them. My mom learned to drive their huge Chrysler around narrow Portland streets, and even, after an excruciating few more weeks, drove it the 245 miles home with him riding shotgun, a first in their long relationship. Everything was different after that.
I remain aware that I live in a time in my life when a single event could result in nothing in my life ever being the same again.
Haven
John McWhirter: Study of Wildflowers (19th-20th century)
"No camera could have captured what we witnessed there…"
The Muse and I feel fortunate to live off the better beaten paths. Despite the difficulties we experience trying to find a decent loaf of bread here, many subtle positive externalities surround us. At our age, this place, this “valley they liked so well they named it twice,” its scale suits us even if the politics and parochial perspectives don't always please. Many of our age have relocated here, imagining a safe haven within which to age, only to find healthcare difficult to access and often unavailable at any price. Furthermore, for those accustomed to the narrow range of weather found west of the Cascades, our climate can prove tiring, with endless weeks of temperatures in the nineties throughout summer and months of dreary fog accompanying each winter. Water seems as scarce as Trader Joeses, Costcos, and Targets. Lately, several old familiar businesses have closed. Our economy suddenly seems to be on a downward spiral.
The compensations sometimes seem few and far between, for they remain subtle.
TooOld
Jack Gould: Untitled [elderly women inside old house] (c. 1950)
" …when I was still considered too young to engage in any of this shit."
For most of my most formative years, I was too young. I excruciatingly slowly outgrew my youth to eventually qualify for many of the activities from which my youth had excluded me. I was granted certain dispensations. I was granted the opportunity to ride my bike six miles uphill every predawn morning, delivering newspapers, when I wasn't quite ten yet. This was because my year-older brother was also vying for a route, and mine would make one less drop for the distributor every morning. Once I began getting granted opportunities from which my youth had early exempted me, I began to appreciate the even then ancient adage cautioning against being extremely careful about what I might wish for. I was proud to have a paper route before I was allowed to have one, but then I was expected to pull my weight as if I had already turned ten.
Being old enough didn't provide the payoff I had anticipated.
Expectations
Rembrandt Harmenszoon van Rijn: Beggar Man and Woman behind a Bank (1630)
"Should this realization motivate me to stop engaging?"
I was never able to buy into the once-popular notion of continuous improvement. For me, that concept set utterly unrealistic Expectations because improvement, as well as most other phenomena, never occurs continuously. Intermittent might better describe improvement processes, if 'process' even qualifies as the proper descriptor. Some insisted that the continuous label was affixed for motivational purposes, though this insistence nudged me even closer toward disgust. I was never all that motivated to experience the impossible. How, I wondered, would setting impossible Expectations motivate anybody? Those seemed to create good reasons to not feel motivated, but despondent, and put-upon by whoever presumed the right to expect me to produce impossibilities.
So, I early on imprinted on the absurdity underlying much of what we label as process.
Golf(Reprint from 2/24/2025)
Jack Gould: Untitled
[woman wearing dice costume playing golf] (c. 1950)
"He's absent without leave or purpose. This might be his greatest gift to us."
(This story is a report from 2/24/2025)
Golf represents one very prominent feature of NextWorld. I might be tempted to insist that our Incumbent sought the job for the leisure time it provided, for, despite being one of the Quote, Busiest people in the world, Unquote, he somehow manages to spend three or four days each week at one of his golf courses, playing or playing at golf. I might also be tempted to consider this proclivity evidence of more than an idle interest, perhaps an addiction, for few activities more demean high office than time spent on "the links." The game represents the pinnacle of what economist Thorsten Veblen called Conspicuous Consumption. Veblen lost a series of university appointments because he insisted upon writing unpopular analyses of the world he inhabited. He possessed the temerity to propose that the apparent purpose of success in America was to essentially waste the resulting wealth showing off. Few human activities seem more frivolous than owning clubs dedicated to offering well-heeled opportunities to fritter away hours chasing a small ball around a park. Indeed, the most frivolous possible activities involve throwing away irreplaceable time.
Kurt Vonnegut believed that the true purpose of human existence involves farting around.
Depth
Joseph Lisle: A diving belle (1818 - 1830)
From the Thomas McLean Collection
" … the last thing they will have to celebrate until their own assassination."
I have been operating out of my Depth for all of my life so far. I once believed—or prayed—that I might one day "grow out of" my innate shallowness, though I no longer hold out much of any hope for that result. I have grown to expect myself to perform pretty much to my specs, which, while sometimes broad rather than narrow and tall rather than short, have always, so far, tended toward the eminently shallow. I'm uncertain how one develops Depth. Experience alone does not necessarily seem to translate into deepening experience, for one can seemingly dabble in any subject without ever truly delving very much deeper.
Many have taken to complaining about the lack of Depth in our incumbent's political appointees.
A_Lot
Anonymous Germany 1499:
Lot's Wife Turned to a Pillar of Salt (15th century)
"We know he's lying whenever he moves his lips."
Our incumbent, who works hard to emphasize that he never was or will be "Our President," employs a particularly telling "tell." A "tell" describes an unconscious action that betrays an attempted deception. In other words, a tell provides explicit confirmation that he is lying when he lies. He seems to continually employ this specific tactic, which serves to bolster the notion that he rarely tells the truth. He will make some assertion and immediately confirm its accuracy by declaring that "A_Lot" of people agree. Validation by reference to some vague quantity rarely convinces anybody. "A_Lot" could be a dozen or a thousand or a million. He leaves the precise volume to his listener's imagination. He appears to use his title to amplify his assertions, as if holding an office bestowed special perceptive powers on the office holder, when it clearly doesn't. He might be attempting to intimidate opposition by anchoring his assertion, however absurd, to some imaginary majority opinion, as if merely holding an opinion or just being said to hold an opinion might render any odd assertion valid.
In his ecosystem, bare assertion seems to often stand in for naked truth.
Weekly Writing Summary For The Week Ending 07/24/2025
Winslow Homer: The End of the Day, Adirondacks (1890)
Notice Themselves Disappearing
It's fundamentally unfair that shame has been so haphazardly distributed among the populace. Most quickly redden when catching themselves engaged in something embarrassing. Some seem to possess no threshold beyond which they can consider ceasing or desisting, even though accomplishing either amounts to doing both. Our incumbent, may his name never again cross my lips, knows no limits. He serves as a continual reminder of the price of self-importance, for it inflicts by far the greatest tax on everyone else. Those who witness it in action never recover whatever respect they might have previously exhibited toward the afflicted. Those incapable of shame ultimately seem inhuman.
This universe never had any masters.
Indenture
Kahlil Gibran: The Slave (1920)
"I have another early call again tomorrow morning."
Part of the sacred responsibility that accompanies any family must be the obligation to occasionally Indenture one's spouse. This need not necessarily be in any way ominous, for necessity will dictate the timing. Part of the unwritten covenant between any couple covers cornering them. This might involve volunteering their services without first consulting them or merely informing them, rather than asking. The savvy spouse will accept these assignments without altogether too much grousing because they at least imply that they're still seen as good for something, which might be a blessing, depending.
The Muse had this brilliant idea to auction off a couple of dinner parties as part of a fundraising scheme by the local party.
Complicity
Unknown Artist: Portrait of a man (Mid-3rd century CE)
Gallery Notes:
The irregular shaping of the wooden board here helps us imagine the original placement of this portrait over the mummy’s face, affixed with complicated wrappings. The portrait is painted using the encaustic technique, in which pigment is mixed with beeswax, allowing the artist to achieve complex gradations of light and shade and sometimes a luminescence that has been compared to the sheen of oil painting. The man’s hair and beard are trimmed short in the fashion of the mid-third century.
"We'd rather ride the slow train to oblivion."
The Muse, in her role as Port Commissioner, asked me to attend the Port's bi-monthly Economic Development Information Meeting (EDIM) in her stead, since she would be attending a commissioner-only meeting convened by the Washington State Association for the Prevention of Port Commissions in a far corner of the state. I had not attended one of these meetings in nearly twenty years. It typically offers a free lunch and attracts a wide variety of interested parties. It usually features a speaker who holds forth on some topic and enough minutiae to satisfy anyone with a severe spreadsheet dependency.
I arrived a little early so I could wish the conveners well and grab a choice seat waaaaay up front along one side.
Paperwocky
Unknown Artist, probably Spanish: Shadow Box: Castle (1693)
"I'm a tad old-fashioned that way."
"I have adjusted your shopping cart to show the custom cover lite. Please send me your final manuscript and the cover art. Please send any notes you may have regarding the cover design as well.
"I now just need the production approval. Please log in to submit. When you log in, click on the title ID in the active titles box, and you will see a checklist to the right. The last item under the column, You Must applies to you. Please click on ‘Click Here for Production Agreement’. Some terms will drop down. Please review and then click on the Approve Production button. We can then start work."
"I'm a tad old-fashioned that way."
Slip over here for more ...Moisture
Pieter van der Heyden: Summer, from The Four Seasons (1570)
published by Hieronymus Cock
"I can expect another little insubstantial rain shower along about September."
Every day for the past month or so, the news has been reporting the most savage series of flash floods I remember. Past summers have not been nearly this tumultuous, with perhaps a narrow tornado season followed later by an equally narrow hurricane one, but this summer has seen a seemingly unending series of record-setting, thousand-year floods following unprecedented downpours measuring in inches of Moisture per hour. As usual, my little corner of this world, the one overlooking the absolute center of the universe, where gravity always works reliably, has seen nothing even distantly resembling these calamities. We've experienced our more or less usual Moisture so far this summer, the negative kind. Through June, we received barely a distant whisper of rain, resulting in a net negative Moisture month for us again. We've been praying for rain, while further east, they've been praying for its cessation.
We worship the god of moisture, believing it makes life here possible.
MeetingMyself
Allart van Everdingen: Rabbit meets Reynard in Field (17th century)
"The difference sure feels profound, though…"
As a writer, I mostly work through surrogates. It's not precisely that I do not show up for work when I work. It's more that when working, I primarily project. However introspective one of my stories might seem, creating them amounts to an act of extreme extroversion for this extraordinarily introverted writer. I usually speak to someone else when creating, my mythical reader, or the ether. Writing for me has never been a dialogue with myself, or even with the deaf. Even when I edit a fresh piece, it's more of an out-of-body experience than a conversation. I might burgle the opportunity for me to read my writing by the very act of creating it. It seems at least vaguely familiar even on first reading, probably because I just finished writing it. Editing demands a certain cold-hearted distance, akin to pruning shrubs or weeding tomatoes —a certain indifference. It is hardly an intimate act, best done at an emotional distance.
So, it was a rare occurrence when I found myself re-re-reading my Cluelessness manuscript, recently returned from final copyediting before publication, and caught myself immersed in what must have been myself.
StudyingMyself
Stanley Anderson, Engraver: Head Study (1908)
From: Samuel Putnam Avery Collection
"…I retain a few unanswered questions."
As I announced in Recovery, the episode of this FollowingChapters Series I posted just before yesterday's Weekly Writing Summary, my Cluelessness manuscript has returned from its final copyediting pass. I had both dreaded and warmly anticipated its return. I secretly feared that the copyeditor would uncover the depth of my long-secreted impostor syndrome and expose me for my presumptions. I also imagined that her efforts might somehow validate my talents, however modest, and justify my continuing this little vanity on into infinity. I received a bit of both, and also neither of what I'd so fervently hoped and feared. As I reported in Recovery, she’d employed a light hand, preserving what I'd imagined represented my voice while drawing a firm line between what might prove acceptable and what could never pass muster.
I characterize myself as more of a feral writer than a trained one.
Weekly Writing Summary For The Week Ending 07/17/2025
Angelo Caroselli: Summer (1620s)
Downward And In
I cannot decide whether I'm aging or just imagining myself aging. I have so far failed to convince myself that I'm growing any older. I see old classmates pass by, obviously aged in my remarkably youthful eyes. I should know, I submitted to cataract surgery ages ago, but I survived. Nobody ever very well remembers the struggles they endured, just the moments within which they surprisingly managed to convince themselves again that they were probably not aging.
I continually need to resolve some fairly obvious deviations from expectations.
Rediscovery
Ammi Phillips: Harriet Leavens [1802-1830] (c. 1815)
"…the direct eventual result of this writer writing."
Seven summers ago this morning, I was up writing very early, as had been my habit for just over a year by then. I had begun this writing discipline after a six-month-long Dark Night of the Soul wherein I wondered if I had ever—indeed, would ever—become a writer. I quelled my fretting by writing, a simple enough resolution in retrospect, but a serious question when still prospective. I speculated that if writers write, then I could only hope to answer the question of whether I was a writer by writing. I needed plenty of reassurance then, so I began by dedicating myself to daily stints. I'd write early in the morning, before my day could slip away from me. Neither the content nor the purpose mattered then, for I was just seeking reassurance. If I could maintain that modest commitment, I figured I might eventually consider myself to be the writer I aspired to become.
In reality, the effort proved to be a little more complicated, since this fresh dedication demanded a level of diligence I'd never invested in anything before.
FalseFlags
Johann Sadeler I: Micaiah and the False Prophets (16th-17th century)
"We're not quite there yet."
Since the 1930s, DC Comics character Superman has been presented as a staunch defender of "Truth, Justice, and the American Way." These three pillars of the society I was later born into remained reasonably stable until recently, when another ethic began to enjoy expanding influence. Our incumbent, schooled by the fascist gangster Roy Cohn, embraced a decidedly different American Way. His version rooted itself in falsity and injustice, reframing these as the supporting principles of his newer American Way, if I can even properly characterize falsity and injustice as principles. Our incumbent realized that truth could be effectively neutralized for any purpose by merely dispensing lies. These lies could not succeed if they were tentative. The liar would have to be all in if he intended to succeed. He would need to treat Truth as the ultimate enemy of his brand of democracy. He set about creating an alternate ecosystem where lies could thrive.
In the paper-rock-scissors game that comprises public opinion, the relative truth or fiction of any assertion matters little to the dedicated practitioner.
AntiPolicy
Utagawa Hiroshige 歌川 広重: A Cuckoo Against the Moon (c. 1843/46)
"They are their own worst enemies …"
Our incumbent holds no affirmative policy positions. I could insist that he holds no policy positions because those he has, or those he holds in lieu of holding affirmative policy positions, tend to be negative. He seems to be opposed to damned nearly everything, especially anything that even distantly hints at decency. This outlook places him and his anti-administration in a unique position, for they exclusively promote negative space outcomes. Try to envision a result should any of his anti-positions somehow come to fruition, and you will find yourself unable to agree with anybody on how those results will manifest. Each seems to project a strong sense of tangibility until and unless one tries to render them tangible. Asking the innocent question, "And if you achieved that, what would you have?" throws his spokespersons into inescapable disarray.
From a wannabe strong man, negative, AntiPolicy positions tend to sound powerful, like any espoused by any odd Old Testament God.
CityOfCards
Lucas Vorsterman: Fighting farmers after a card game 1619-1675
Gallery Notes: Fighting farmers, after a card game. One holds a threshing flag and hits the other on the head, while another man tries to stop him. The other farmer has a pitchfork in his hands. A woman holds a jug and is prevented from hitting it by a man holding her wrist. In the foreground, a fallen bench, a jug, and a scattered deck of cards. In the background, a village.
" … the future refuses to disclose which castles topple next."
" … the future refuses to disclose which castles topple next."
Every half-decent charlatan masters the construction of at least one House of Cards. It takes an exceptional one to oversee the development of a Community of them, and a once-in-a-very-blue-moon one to fabricate enough buildings to result in a genuine CityOfCards. The City seems no less tenuous than the original single building, though it's exponentially more fragile if only because of the proximities of similar fragilities. One errant puff of wind, one clumsey addition, and the entire fabrication can crumble. After some point, the marvel no longer comes from the construction, but from the ever more unlikely preservation. The likelihood of catastrophic failure blooms as the charlatan continues adding roofs. He eventually can't stop himself from ever-more-frantically adding roofs.
The sure bets ride with failure, but then a second wind, if you'll excuse the expression, comes in to encourage ever more frantic and apparently successful construction.
Prafussee
William Blake:
Frontispiece for "America a Prophecy" (1793)
"Anyone claiming today that they're directed by God has forgotten their history lessons or they might just be a charlatan."
News that reports some members of the incumbent's cabinet, public servants, believe themselves to be instruments of prophecy leaves me wondering whether insanity can be employed as a credible offense. Nobody can reasonably claim to be such an instrument, and if true, nobody gets to choose to become such an agent. I seem to remember some biblical figures cursing such an intrusion into their lives, neither particularly proud nor feeling rewarded by such a designation. Further, biblical prophecy so predates our circumstances that it seems much more than merely unlikely that scripture, retranslated innumerable times over many, many centuries, even if divinely inspired, could have accurately and intentionally targeted our times as its purpose. Further still, modern interpreters of such messages appear to interpret them literally, except in those special instances where figurative interpretations seem necessary. They seem capable of justifying anything by claiming scriptural sanction, and do.
Heaven help us survive this latest twist on justification.
Disintegrating
John Martin: Fall of the Walls of Jericho,
from Illustrations of the Bible (1834)
"It would never raise a credible head again. It's done."
The apotheosis appears as a trajectory more than a peak. At that point, nothing's obvious yet, though subtle and, in retrospect, not so subtle signs point to an inescapable conclusion. That arc peaked. It will never regain that height again. It's downhill from there, though not necessarily a power dive. There might be a series of plateaus and even a few apparent recoveries on the inevitable way down, but the momentum is lost along with the surprise that the initiative initially depended upon. Opponents easily anticipate what were once utterly baffling motives and moves. What seemed like magic was rendered barely tragic. Only theater remains. The outcome will never again find itself in serious question. So begins the slow shuffle toward the exits. What began as a mammoth traffic jam as everyone tried to arrive before the start winds down with people who paid through the nose for tickets leaving well before the end to avoid traffic or something.
Our incumbent still believes he successfully outsmarted everybody.
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George Inness: After a Summer Shower (1894)
Now Must Be The Time
I once believed that a time might come when my patience would be amply rewarded, though I never invested much time defining what that payoff might entail. Would it come in the form of no longer needing to exercise patience? After all those decades diligently practicing my patience, I might have earned a payoff that promised only the continued practice, by then masterful, of ever more patience. I might have mastered waiting. It seems now, from the perspective of this once far and distant shore, that practicing patience itself might have always been the underlying purpose, promise fulfilled in the very act of striving to practice. Of course, anyone who has practiced patience understands that this practice never seems to approach perfection. Even the avid practitioner understands that even diligently practicing patience involves experiencing considerable impatience, too, and that it's ultimately a failed pursuit if judged too absolutely.
My mother's Uncle Curtis served as an early example of both diligence and patience.
BrightIdeas!
Harold Edgerton: Death of a Light Bulb (1936, printed later)
" … the crutial resource I need to deploy to succeed."
I learned early in my consulting career that my most successful clients started their projects with the worst ideas. These often seemed initially inspiring but ultimately unrealistic, and rarely survived into implementation. The less successful operations married their earliest notions and spent the bulk of their development efforts trying to avoid divorce. They would end up implementing something nobody really needed to satisfy some urge that hadn't survived the earliest phases. The most successful companies seemed to be most skilled at skewering their originating BrightIdeas!
I later realized that all development efforts start with BrightIdeas!
Lowbernation
Edward Clark Potter:
Sleeping Infant Faun Visited by an Inquisitive Rabbit (1887–89)
"All might be right with the world contained within the midsummer guest bedroom walls."
Midsummer brings a lethargy every bit as overpowering as any mid-winter might induce. In both instances, the weather turns inconveniencing, even menacing, introducing a definite reduction in initiative. If I'm not finished with my outside work by ten in the morning, I'm best off just forgetting about making progress that day. When the mercury fails to make it below seventy overnight and has already climbed to eighty before six, its trajectory becomes obvious. This is a performance I've seen before. In my youth, I'd head for the swimming pool and stay in the deep end all afternoon. Now, I head for the guest bedroom to lie beneath a screaming ceiling fan to read another detective novel until I doze. I swear I never know where any of those afternoons go.
I later take to the back deck and water the planters.
Tariffied
Lucian and Mary Brown:
Untitled [baby reaching for typewriter] (c. 1950)
"Nobody ever applauds a terrorist."
Far from appearing to be a skilled negotiator, our incumbent exasperates his counterparts by continually switching his terms. On trade, he made up a "novel" definition of tariff, one which no economist can make heads or tails of. He promises one thing before reneging, typically delivering some punishing terms to trading partners who've loyally served as our manufacturers for decades. Even where no hope of developing domestic production exists, he hits a former partner with some punishing, seemingly random blow. Nobody knows what he's trying to do. If anything shines through his increasingly thin veneer of sanity, his trade negotiation policies qualify as nearly pure insanity. Or, perhaps, they're only inanity. The two seem indistinguishable in him.
The urgent need to seem victimized might fuel much of this theater.
Disasters
Thomas Rowlandson:
The Double Disaster or New Cure for Love (July 10, 1807)
Published by Thomas Tegg
" … after the previously almost unthinkables start occurring regularly again."
In an apparent contradiction, MAGA governance has ushered in an unprecedented —and indeed, previously unthinkable — number of Disasters. From airplanes suddenly falling out of the sky or inexplicably leaving taxiways on takeoffs or landings, to so-called Natural Disasters, those deemed caused by acts of a somewhat less than benevolent God, the MAGA-verse has seen more and worse than recent administrations. While the incumbent hastily explains that these can be traced to lingering effects of President Biden's administration, no explanation seems entirely necessary. Actual Disasters come from nowhere, are utterly unforeseeable, and provide almost endless potential for sympathetic photo opportunities. Few things demonstrate an administration's authority more than mustering the National Guard to help locate flood victims with their Hueys. This sudden spate of horrible events might have boosted the incumbent's ratings.
His incessant budget cutting and reallocating could be seen as at least a proximal cause of this shocking increase in Disasters.
3rdWorld
Vasily Kandinsky: Painting with Green Center (1913)
"Nobody imagines us essential anymore."
I was born into THE 1st World nation. Others would catch up to become almost our peers, but for nearly all of my years, my country held distinct advantages over every other country in this world. In the early years, this advantage encouraged our compassion. Sure, we still exhibited vestigial evidence of a lingering arrogance, but we were most often seen as benefactor and breadbasket, goodwill ambassadors more than vicious competitors, except with the Communists, of course, but we invented our Communists because we needed the appearance of competitors. We could well afford to be egalitarian, and we befriended everyone we could. We agreed to host the United Nations headquarters, and few could question the reason. We were the original democracy, and we were definitely interested in sharing our social technology, even when, unfortunately, it was not of our target's choosing.
We always had a primitive minority who opposed modernity, seeing government programs as reckless intrusions into sacred traditions.
UnAmerican
American Issue Publishing Co.: Liquor Problem: United States.
A "wet and dry" Map of Temperance Reform in the U.S.:
"Wet" and "Dry" Map of the United States, January 1, 1912:
Areas shown in white are areas in which
the sale of alcohol is prohibited by law.
(1912)
"I wonder if we can survive until the curtain rises on our next performance."
This year's 4th of July, coming on the day our incumbent signed the most repressive bill in American history, didn't hardly seem worth celebrating for many, me prominently included. I moped around the place, grieving for a fictional America I still believed in, for that's what makes me an American. This new bill seemed too gawd-awful cynical to accurately represent actual American interests. It seemed unworthy of even any Banana Republic, and might be evidence that we've finally gone and done it, become the very opposite of our Founders' originating intentions.
There was always much contention between the pretensions necessary to maintain governance and what are widely considered to be rights and freedoms.
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George Platt Lynes: Frederick Prokosch [writer] (c. 1950)
Worsen Our Collective Experience
I suspect that one of these days, the old Father Forgive Them For They Know Not What They Do routine will finally lose traction, especially in a country predicated upon the notion that we could and so really should be striving to improve rather than incessantly backpedaling. Our latest ignorance seems forced and unconvincing, as if we had not been living for the last three-quarters of a century. Ignorance didn't used to be a choice. It could appear without overdue blame before the Enlightenment. After, those who chose to ignore history's lessons tended to undermine themselves, so most avoided dabbling in it on anything like a societal scale, except for those who gained their power and authority by associating with the biggest losers in history. One by one, the more primitive philosophies bowed down to emerging realities, and while all was still not entirely right with this world, things were arguably better, enviably so.
But being human, we couldn't just accept obvious improvement and retire to smell sweet roses.
Cluelessnesses
Raphael Sadeler, the Elder:
Allegory of Wealth, Lust, and Stupidity (1588)
" … some just manage to cope better with its presence."
M'Lord's Prayer
Our Father, who art in our imagination,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done
on Earth as within our deepest intentions.
Give us this day our enriched white bread,
And forgive us our debts
As we persecute our debtors.
Lead us well beyond temptation and
Forgive us our Cluelessnesses
As we persecute those who seem most clueless to us.
Award us the franchise to deliver evil,
that we might finally vanquish decency,
For thine is the power and the glory
We intend to invoke forever and ever. Amen
Raphael Sadeler, the Elder:
Allegory of Wealth, Lust, and Stupidity (1588)
" … some just manage to cope better with its presence."
M'Lord's Prayer
Our Father, who art in our imagination,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done
on Earth as within our deepest intentions.
Give us this day our enriched white bread,
And forgive us our debts
As we persecute our debtors.
Lead us well beyond temptation and
Forgive us our Cluelessnesses
As we persecute those who seem most clueless to us.
Award us the franchise to deliver evil,
that we might finally vanquish decency,
For thine is the power and the glory
We intend to invoke forever and ever. Amen
Humildity
Wayne Miller: Heat Wave, August 1947 (1947)
" … shirts that wrinkle far too easily in such low humidity."
When I was twenty-three,I experienced high humidity for the first time. I could not believe that people could tolerate living with it, that every soldier in the Civil War wore a heavy felt wool uniform and still managed to move around in that stuff. I promptly contracted a severe case of sun poisoning, a condition I had previously been blissfully unaware of existing. It occurs when bright sunlight filters through extremely moist air. The effect seemed similar to what happens when sunlight passes through a well-focused magnifying glass. I blistered and felt seventh-circle-of-Hell horrible for a week, taking ice baths and slathering ineffective calamine lotion all over my upper body. I had never really bought in to the concept of an Old Testament vengeful God until that experience. I wear long sleeves and havelocks through my summers now.
Summers here near the center of the universe feature a drier heat, the sort that vacationers to the Southwest use to explain away triple-digit temperatures.
Moosenator
John Woodhouse Audubon:
Servus alces, Moose Deer. Old male & young. (1845-48)
" … a little heaven here in The Villa so close to the center of our universe."
I have no more steady companion than our formerly feral male cat Max. Since he became a member of our entourage five years ago, he has accumulated a fair raft of nicknames, if only because he's a member of our family and everybody in our family gets assigned at least one nom de famille. He sports several, including: Maximum, Moose, and Moosenator (pronounced Moose-EN-a-tor). Those who ask why I call him moose, I answer by insisting it was because of the antlers. Of course, The Moose does not actually have antlers, which might be my point. Perhaps the finest reason to assign nicknames in the first place involves the creation of an absurdist mythos around the old family unit. I imagine myself a budding Roald Dahl, writing a book about the wholly unlikely adventures of a typical American family who just happens to have a Moose and a Muse involved. I believe that every life requires some air of mythic mystery surrounding it. Mine features a Moose.
The Moosenator is clever, but not particularly intelligent.
Trepidation
Alfred Stieglitz: Self-Portrait with camera, tripod, and pistol (1886)
"It feels like the thousand deaths …"
This week promises to become one of those weeks that were. So many weeks come and go without leaving many footprints. I recently failed to recall entire quarters where I'd dedicated myself to writing series now lost to memory, if not necessarily to history. I reassured myself that nobody remembers all the books Twain wrote, and he remains perhaps the most popular writer in our history. This week, my copyeditor promised to deliver her completed work on my pending manuscript. I am not warmly anticipating reading her results. Though I firmly believe in the copyeditor's beneficial contribution, I would have preferred to forego this specific stage of manuscript development. I'd asked her last December if she could provide a quick check to prove that my manuscript required her effort. She asked me to send her a few pages. She almost immediately responded that she found five glaring errors in the first paragraph!
Humbled into acceptance then, I told her I'd get back to her after some deeper consideration.
DaysOff
Russell Lee: Seaside, Oregon, is vacation spot (1941)
United States. Farm Security Administration
"My work, my play."
I don't take vacations. DaysOff seem out of the question. My summertime's filled with obligations that effectively prevent me from leaving home. Who would water the gardens and tend the cats? More than that, who would write the daily missive if I went missing? I understand that my time isn't refundable. If I miss a day, I've forfeited it, never to be recovered. I will never again stand in that place or time. I feel a sacred obligation to keep my nose near to this grindstone. When I have to go away, I take my business with me. I can rise just as early elsewhere as I can rise here, so my production continues even if I'm jury-rigging connections in a tiny hotel room in Paris. I will consent to visit, but I will not agree to suspend my writing for even a day.
I do not write for a living; I live to write.
CounterIntuitive
Jack Gould: Untitled [women lined up in front of counter,
seen from behind shop counter] (c. 1950)
"We're destined to become mere observers of our computations."
A great myth was created at the dawn of the personal computing age. Before then, when computing exclusively resided within large organizations, computer professionals took considerable pride in their ability to work within tenaciously hostile intellectual environments. They were, after all, professionals, so their methods and practices should have, by all rights, remained obscure and mysterious to the general public. These professionals reveled in their status as eggheads and were seen as much more intelligent than the Average "Regular" Person. Many became conversant in what was properly referred to as "machine language" and could think and dream in ways never imagined by Average "Regular" Persons.
The dilemma arose when technology advanced to the point where personal computers became feasible.
Weekly Writing Summary For The Week Ending 06/26/2025
Stuart Davis: Study for “’Art Digest’ Cover” (1953)
Just Like This Administration
Physicists maintain a unique sort of humor within their ranks. They award an Ignoble Prize to scientists performing particularly absurd studies. They're attracted to Irreproducible Results. They amuse themselves analyzing Cartoon Physics, the sort to which Wylie Coyote runs sideways. Does Coyote Gravity exist? It turns out that, while the realization that nothing supports you doesn't actually trigger gravity into action, a discernible delay comes into play when someone inadvertently attempts to walk on air when blindly running off the end of a mesa. Objects do not flatten to the extent shown in cartoons when running full speed into an immovable object, though some flattening does occur.
Our incumbent engaged in Cartoon Physics last week when explaining what happened when some Bunker Buster® bombs hit an Iranian uranium enrichment facility buried deep underground.
TechTalk
Kate Greenaway: The disappointment. (1890)
"I will be back at it again tomorrow morning."
Technology promised what every innovation has always promised: ease. It has yet to deliver. Not that this failure has chased off many customers. I know of nobody who made good on their pledge to rid themself of their frustrating technology. No, we return with fresh hopes the following morning, only to rediscover the depth of technology's betrayal. It does not seem to care. It seems incapable of giving a damn. We stopped being mere users decades ago, before our technology became this convoluted. Tangle built upon previous tangles to produce a mess whose designers probably don't understand.
My technology holds the power to transform me into a whimpering eight-year-old at virtually any time.
Broken
J. B. B. Wellington:
The Broken Saucer (c. 1880/90, printed April 1890)
" … not even duct tape holds anything together forever."
I have attained an age where much of what surrounds me seems Broken. I suspect that this acknowledgement accompanies aging, since in my more innocent youth, I seemed surrounded by more operational than Broken stuff. My stove-top espresso maker's handle was missing this morning. It had broken off a few weeks ago when the house cleaner accidentally knocked it off the countertop. I'd fixed it with some superglue, and that held until a few days ago, when it let go. I learned that I'd have to find some high-temperature glue to more permanently fix it, so I placed that need into my ever-burgeoning pending queue. I'll get around to finding that when I finally get around to finding that, assuming I ever remember to. In the meantime, I discovered that two pot holders held just so suffice as a fix until something more permanent manifests.
Much of my existence seems to be suspended in just that state: Pending Something More Permanent.
Preference
Russell Lee: Detail of farmer's blue jeans, boots and spurs.
This man was once a cowboy and still prefers the cowboy's dress,
Pie Town, New Mexico (1940) Farm Security Administration
"I expect that I'll always struggle to get in touch with my heart's desire …"
I struggle when responding to anyone asking about my preferences. I was raised to be more sensitive to what others prefer than to my own preferreds, a valuable skill in a family with five kids where neediness easily translated into a form of weakness. I learned early the value indifference brought and the cost neediness wrought. I was rarely considered to be a picky eater. Quite the opposite, I was known for my adventurous palate. My dad "preferred" chicken backs so his kids could feast on the meatier cuts. My mom could turn into a genuine Christian martyr sometimes, denying her personal preference in deference to her kids'.
Making matters worse, when I was in Junior High School, I found an old Victorian text in the local Goodwill book section, “The Kingship of Self-Control.” I took that book to heart.
DroppingIn
Harold Edgerton: Milk Drop Coronet (c. 1936)
" … not nearly as alone in this world as we could have sworn we were sometimes."
Most of us live well-regulated lives. This renders us more predictable than we might be otherwise. There is no question about whether we imprinted on hunter-gatherer or farmer behavior. We're definitely farmers. We rise at just about the same time each morning. Through the day, we follow a schedule that defines our edges. We reliably show up for supper at the usual time. We even regulate our vacations, planning routes, stops, and experiences. We try to leave little to chance.
Hunter-gatherers, though, left much to chance.
Priorities
Ben Shahn:
Untitled [Washington Court House, Ohio] (July-August 1938)
"The evil done in our name serves as the greatest evil of all."
Our incumbent waddled off his golf course to fly back to his supposed home to deliver another borderline incoherent rant about something. He sounded triumphant as he spewed his usual paradoxes, pleading for a peaceful end to a violent engagement he initiated. So much for the great negotiator, now reduced to pre-emptive triumphalism.
The Muse and I had spent our day harvesting.
FollowingMyself
Louis Rhead: I diverted myself with talking to my parrot (1900)
— Illustration from 1900 William Taylor edition of The Life and Strange Surprizing Adventures of Robinson Crusoe, of York, Mariner: Who lived Eight and Twenty Years, all alone in an un-inhabited Island on the Coast of America, near the Mouth of the Great River of Oroonoque; Having been cast on Shore by Shipwreck, wherein all the Men perished but himself. With An Account how he was at last as strangely deliver'd by Pyrates. Written by Himself. (Popularly known as Robinson Crusoe.)
" … accepting that I'm finally in charge of FollowingMyself."
Beyond a certain uncertain point, I find I have to lead myself. The trailblazers and popularizers I once looked to for direction have either left the building or proven themselves incapable of further advising me, so divergent have our paths and aspirations become. What early in my careers became an identity struggle has laid down its weapons. My identity is finally no longer a mystery to me. Neither are my fallacies. I more deeply understand my underlying absurdities as well as my fundamental decencies. I remain incomplete yet almost complacent, satisfied having life come at me, finally understanding and accepting that I never really had any alternative. I have arrived.
Where I've arrived might not matter.
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